I write this to you my beautiful children. You are both independent, strong willed and determined just as I am. Knowing this make my heart smile, always. It ensures me that I know you will not only succeed in life, but that you will be happy. You are both different people, you have different strengths (and weaknesses) but you have one thing in common, the shear amount of adoration and unconditional love that I have for you both.
Happiness comes in many forms, but ultimately you have to be happy within yourself; with your decisions and also the way in which you conduct yourself.
As your parent, I have done things I’m especially proud of, I have been successful and I have also held many powerful, happy and meaningful relationships, both romantically and within friendship. But I have also done things I am not proud of. We all have, and I would never try tell you otherwise. The fact of the world is that people can be not very nice to each other, usually out of selfishness- in order to better themselves or their own lives. Perhaps these actions aren’t always meant to hurt as much as they do and done purely because they do not like you as a person, or that they do not care about you; perhaps it’s punishment or even karma. Either way, you both should know that this happens, and I want to assure you that although it will happen to you, you that you are strong and if you keep your dignity and head held high, you will find happiness again. You will move on (it make take time, and be painful) but you will. You will find happiness again!
But what happens when you do things your not proud of? Or people close to you treat you in a way that you are not happy with, or makes you feel stressed, emotional or angry? What happens when people break your heart, lie and deceive you and make you feel like your world is collapsing within your soul?
The answer is nothing.
Life goes on. People’s lives do not change because your heart is broken or you’ve been hurt or feel angry. It is something that although you will always have support from those close to you, that you have to deal with inside your heart. But I want to tell you- it will heal; because you will have no choice. You are both strong and you I know that whilst these events may change you as a person, they will also feed your soul and make you who you are ready for your next chapter. Life is all about developing, adapting and becoming, what ever it throws at you, you will be strong.
Life is made up of many chapters. I hope you can see that within my life there have been many and despite there being unhappiness in each, there has also been laughter, love and also wonderful memories made. Each chapter has made me who I am today, and you will create your own story.
So both of you, be happy within your life and relationships. Do not make do, or feel as though you must settle. If you are not fully satisfied or ever feel mistreated, threatened or suffer irreparable hurt- walk away. No one, and no circumstances are worth wasting your precious life and wonderful chances. No person ever has the right to mistreat you, nor do you ever deserve to be punished.
You are both my world and I want you both to be happy, whatever path you choose, whatever life you lead- it is your choice. But please, be happy with yourself, your life and the people you trust. You will make mistakes and I will be there to help you fix them, but never have regrets. Know that I am always here for you, regardless.
There is always more love. Even if it feel like the end of the world, you feel worthless and you begin to question everything you believe in. There is always more love.
Mummy x x